Life is one package.

17 June 2026.

Life is one package. The person you are now is the result of decisions you did or didn't make, and you can't have regrets over that because those descisions, or lack of, were the result of circumstances in your life that were caused by factors far out of your control and long before you were born. You are the person you are now, if you're not happy with that, you should change what you can, and accept what you can't.

In my own life, I look back on many events and circumstances which at the time I viewed to be negative (and to this day, I still deem them negatively) but despite this, they led to positive changes in how I conduct myself, my beliefs and the person I am. Tragedy and suffering becomes just part of our history that we look back and reflect on. It's like our DNA, we simply can't wish for it to be any different. Positives and negatives in this case doesn't mean what's good or bad, but simply what works with your psychology.

For example, maybe you had abusive and crazy parents, you might say you wish you had normal loving parents, but if such was the case, they would've made decisions in their youths that likely would've prevented them from ever meeting one another and you being born. In fact, some people go as far as to lament historical events in the past dating back hundreds of years ago, which is as absurd as arguing with physics.

Another example, you grew up in financial poverty, and with that you've learnt how to be more resourceful such as repairing and having minimum standards. The poverty itself was a negative, but you learnt so much positives from that. Maybe you've learnt how to develop your own style, after not being able to afford the mainstream fashion. In fact, growing up poor was what led me to using Linux, I was desperate to find ways to play Minecraft at a higher FPS since we couldn't afford a more powerful device. Growing up in a dysfunctional household led me to being more patient and independent-driven. Are these good traits in it of itself? Not neccesarily, but they are who I am.

Some would say this is coping, to justify terrible events in our lives, but rather this is actually looking outside of the vaccum. During meditations, I reflect on horrible events in my life, and I realise that they had negative and positive effects, and it's now my objective to minimise the negative effects and expand on the positives.